Baby Boy

Although its still a bit early, it appears that we have a little boy on the way. The tech said not to buy anything yet though hahaha. We have another in 3 weeks and will hopefully have a definite answer then.

Only 2 more days until.....

we find out if we are having a boy or a girl. I will only be 16 weeks 3 days but the doctor said as long as baby is cooperating we shouldn't have any problem finding out. I am so excited!!!!

Update

So I have turned into a bad blogger I know. It's weird after you get pregnant. It's like I was so used to being upset about infertility and I haven't quite figured out how to adjust to the fact that I'm pregnant. Sometimes it still doesn't feel real. Also the last thing I want to do is hurt anyone's feelings. We all know how hard it is to read about the joy someone is experiencing from their pregnancy when you are still trying so badly to get there. So I'm sorry if I am MIA. I'm just still getting used to the idea. That said I have a crib and a changing table in the nursery. I have paint samples on the walls (one blue, one pink). We are scheduled to find out the sex on Dec 17th (only 3 weeks from this Wednesday). This Wednesday I will officially be entering my 2nd trimester! Finally, we saw our little one on Friday and wow has it grown. I think we have an active one on our hands as it was wiggling all over the place. Here are some pics. My little blob now looks like a baby!!!

Second Ultrasound

Here is a pic of our little one. The head is on the bottom left. We also got to hear the heartbeat!! Such a wonderful sound. We are so happy right now. Due date is officially June 1st.

First Baby Pic

So this is a little late but here is an ultrasound pic from last Wednesday. You can't really see much but that's okay! I am hoping that we can get some better pics at our ultrasound this Friday.

A perfect little heartbeat

We saw the baby today for the first time. We could see right away that it had a perfect little heartbeat that the doctor said was over 100, which is great. The doc said everything looked wonderful and we are officially done with the fertility clinic. Our next appointment is a week from this Friday with my regular OB. We will be having another ultrasound then and if all is well I think we will then officially announce the pregnancy to everyone. My doctor today said that seeing a heartbeat definitely lowers the chance of miscarriage but that it lowers again at 8 and 11 weeks. He said if we get to 8 weeks and everything looks good we should feel pretty safe. Big sigh of relief today. Is this actually happening??????

6 days and counting....

until the big day!!

Other than anxiously awaiting the ultrasound things are good. A little nausea but nothing to complain about (i love feeling a little sick as it makes me feel like this is actually happening). I have been so tired and my boobs are sooooo sore. I was pretty crampy earlier this week but it seems to be subsiding a bit as of late. I go back and forth from being the happiest girl in the world to being the most scared I have ever been. I just want to see a little beating heart on Wednesday and I think I will start to believe this is actually happening.

Beta #2

Beta #2 = 1336

Soooooooooooooo happy. From my calculations from my first beta it should have been right around 1150 if it was doubling every 48 hours. So I am absolutely thrilled with that number!!! Now the count down begins to next weeks ultrasound. I cannot wait to see my little one's heart beat!!!

9 days until ultrasound.................

Will I Ever NOT worry???

So today is 4 weeks 5 days pregnant and I am a nervous wreck. I just keep wondering if this is really it? Will I really get my baby? I am so nervous and then I start feeling awful because I am stressing out and I worry that my stressing out is bad for the baby and we go round and round. I just keep thinking on Sunday I will be 5 weeks, on Monday I will get my second Beta, on October 8th I will see my baby's heartbeat. I love this little thing so much. Please wish us luck!

SO HAPPY

Beta #1 = 93

I am totally happy with that number. I am 4 weeks 1 day pregnant plus I ovulate a little late normally. So I am around 12 to 14dpo, which makes that number wonderful! My doctor was happy with it and said to just continue to do the normal protocol which is to come in next Monday for another blood test to make sure everything is still increasing and then my first ultrasound is scheduled for October 8th. How am I going to wait until October 8th???? I am so happy right now. I can't believe this is actually happening!!!

BETA #1 Today

I went and had my blood taken this morning for my first beta. I am so nervous. Please say a little prayer that everything is well with the little one. It's amazing how much I already love something the size of a poppy seed. I should get the results this afternoon.....aghhhhhh!!!

I'm PREGNANT

yeepp....no IUI for me. Well it is still really early and I haven't had it confirmed with a blood test.
Jeff and I got back from vacation today. It was not the best vacation as I was sick as a dog the entire time. I was so nausea we couldn't really do much. I got home today and took a pregnancy test. It popped up with a positive line within just like 30 seconds! I am so excited, although I am only 4 weeks today and I still have to get my hCG numbers this week from the doc. Please, please, please wish me luck! Thanks

Acting like I'm pregnant for 26 weeks now

Soooooo I was thinking the other day about all of my fun two week waits. I've had 13 of them now. I don't drink at all during my two week waits, I don't over due it with anything, don't lift anything heavy. I dream of baby names and don't tell anyone, but sometimes I even buy baby things (and yes I know this probably isn't very healthy). I have been doing this for 13 months. So in total I have been acting like a pregnant woman for 26 weeks just in case I am. Freaking ridiculous. Thats all.

All is well

My first acupuncture session went well yesterday. They just did needles on my front, none in the back. I'm not sure if that is normal or not. The doctor said I should go once a week and then hit it pretty hard the week of ovulation. So anyways I go back Friday and then I am going again on Monday, Wednesday and Thursday of next week. I don't know if it will help but I do know that it relaxes me and that is enough for me right now. The doctor told me to go to my happy place haha. I practiced deep breathing and pictured my self telling my husband that I was pregnant, and then telling my family and friends. I pictured rocking my newborn to sleep, pictured breastfeeding our baby. It was good.

I am on CD11 and should ovulate around 17-18. I am not doing ovulation predictor kits or temping this month. This is the first month I haven't done this in forever and I know it is going to be hard to stick to it. I just plan on having sex every other day (normally we do every day since we don't have any count problems) and trying to enjoy this process. I want to try to go back to the way it was the first couple months we were trying, when we were just filled with excitement and happiness that we were going to make a baby. This is our last month before we go to IUI and I am still hoping that it might work. This is only me second month of clomid so maybe it will do the trick this month. That's all for now!!!

Acupuncture - Take One

So I am getting ready to head out to my first acupuncture session. I am a little nervous but hopefully all will go well. I'm sure I will post how it went.

As for everything else, I am currently on CD 10 and I probably won't ovulate until CD 16-19 so all the fun timed high pressure sex is starting. Awesome!

We had a wonderful holiday weekend. My best friend and her husband and brand new baby came down from Arkansas and stayed with us. It's not as hard with her because although it didn't take her very long to get pregnant, she is by nature a pretty compassionate and understanding person. She gets it if you know what I mean. Anyways the baby is perfect and adorable and I loved every second of holding him. I can't imagine what it will feel like to hold my own child one day.

The R.E. visit

So today was my first appointment with the R.E. It started off with a bang when I ran into an acquaintance that I used to know from a previous job. She said, "hey what are you doing here??? Your young!?" I'm 27 and my reply was "Yes well I may be young but apparently I don't work." I mean what the hell else was I supposed to say. You would think people who were going through it would understand that comments like that do not help. Thanks!

So anyways basically everything else went fine. Dr. P talked to me for a long time and did an exam and ultrasound. He has recommended that we do our first IUI next cycle which would be next month. The hubby and I still need to talk about it and figure out what we want to do. I think we will move in that direction. I am just not sure if we are ready to do it next month. Wouldn't it be nice if I just got pregnant this month and didn't have to do any of it. Wishful thinking I know!! Well that's about it. I am on CD5 of clomid so we will see what happens this month. I'll keep you posted!!

The First Post

Soooo I have decided to try to start a blog dedicated to my fertility struggles. I am hoping that it will give me an outlet while also giving me the opportunity to meet other women going through the same thing. I am blessed to have a very supportive group of friends and family, but as anyone who has struggled with IF can tell you, unless you have gone through it you really cannot begin to understand the rollercoaster that we are on.

Here is my story....I got off birth control April of 2007 and actually tried NOT to get pregnant for a couple of months (this seems really funny to me now). At the time though I wasn't aware that I didn't ovulate until later in my cycle (normally around CD20). So if I was as fertile as say...oh every close friend I know then I would have likely gotten pregnant as we were having sex around that time. Starting in Novemeber we got serious about it and started charting, using OPKs, the works. I found that I ovulate later and was always getting an LH surge as well as a nice temperature spike. So I know that I am ovulating and I figure I am just taking a little longer than normal but I will be pregnant in no time.

Fast forward to May of 2008 and still nothing. I go to my obgyn and she decides to send us for the initial test. They call me and say that my bloodwork shows that I ovulated (I later found out my CD21 progesterone level was a 7.62 which isn't as high as alot of dr.'s think it should be). My husbands sperm analysis came back normal and so did my HSG (which by the way hurt like a bitch in my opinion.) I started clomid this month and am currenlty on CD 28. My cycles are normally 30-32 days so I won't know the outcome of this cycle for a couple more days. I had my blood taken on CD21 (but this was only 3DPO actually because I ovulated on day 18) and my progesterone level was 47!!! WooHoo!!! I have my first appointment with an R.E. scheduled for next Thursday so if I'm not pregnant this cycle at least I will be progressing forward. I haven't been monitered at all during this first round so I am hoping that at least next month I will know more.

Let me just say I know that I am in the very beginning of this process. I know that many couples have been trying alot longer than I have. Sometimes I fell bad when I get upset knowing that so many have gone through so much worse. It still hurts every month that we are dissappointed and sometimes I just lose all faith that we will get pregnant..ever.In this process it seems that all my close girlfriends have gotten pregnant. Three of my close girlfriends got pregnant on their first try. THE FIRST MONTH....it seems so hard to get pregnant and yet they just decide to "try" and Bang their pregnant. One of those close friends lost the baby at 12 weeks and I must say I would rather be in my shoes than hers. I feel awful for her and I cannot imagine what she is going through. I do have great friends and they all mean well but sometimes it just hurts to see them have what I want so badly. I am trying desperatly to keep up hope that this will happen for us soon. Maybe this month is finally it who knows???? And if not, well we will go from there.